fuchsia fragments

have not done this in a while.

and i think i kind of know how the masterchef contestants feel.

DEAD ON THEIR FEET!

4 batches macarons
2 batches melting moments
4 batches anzacs
1 tray caramel slice
1 tray brownies
1 bomb alaska
plus toppings, ganache and icing

i am so tired but kind of fulfilled.

thanks to my apprentices today: justin, carmen and wendie.

of course, this epic baking had a purpose: justin and his church are raising money for a whole heap of reasons such as children living in poverty.

hope his work raises heaps of money.

and hope i can get lots of rest tonight!

and thanks for brekkie, it was awesome :)

we also overtired my sunbeam. guess what that means???

IT'S TIME FOR A KITCHENAID!!! WHOOP~~~

If you read the paper, you would have seen that i did the c2s in 72 minutes...

HAHAHAHAHAHA

NOT A BAD EFFORT!!! ;)

too bad i was still in bed and gave my bib away.

today i met up with my two favourite girls from work.

so happy to see them but a bit of a bittersweet moment since both no longer work with me. so excited to see erin back from her trip and doing okay after everything that's happened to her.

i still believe she was hard done by. and no matter who tells me otherwise, i won't believe it for a second. i understand that there's lot of politics going on but there are better ways of doing things. As said by those higher up.

it seems a bit like people are being pitched against another but i think you choose every step in the game so if one really wanted to, one can make a difference...

anyhow, i am pretty sure i wasn't the one needed reassuring but i got pulled into a meeting room anyway. again. really? its not like i am going to say what was said to me in confidence. try all you like.

if its ego-stroking you are looking for, you came to the wrong person!!!

last three batches of macarons failed

first two, overbeat the whites

third batch, too much egg white.

i am beginning to think that my passionfruit ganache is just cursed. have yet to make a perfect macaron with this filling...

*dejected*

Windy day but i think it turned out okay :-)

Congrats to the lovely couple...

Morning ceremony at Curzon Hall, Garden Chateau. Excellent effort by the bridemaids and bride to brave the weather and not faint from the cold!!! It was a small intimate ceremony. I have to say that this string quartet was better than the one at my cousins back in the day!

Evening reception at the lovely and very expensive Park Hyatt.

Our table was a bit of mix of uni and high school (val and xin and I). pretty much the conversations revolved around how you met carl, where you work now and the pros and cons about working as a graduate for the big 4.......

although some uncanny connections... the girl worked at kpmg, was the audited for GE... in my division, when i was there!! I fully know all the people she was speaking about. then these other two people also worked at nab house... and another girl's boyfriend works in it security... and i now work in it recruitment... he's like.. i'm going home to do up my cv pronto! lol

anyways, it was a good night.

some good games going on.

lovely to my evening with great company too... my val's back!!! xxx

Last week was the perfect weekend.

Why can't it be this weekend as well?

Especially when Carl's getting married? Why why why why why?!?!

What am i going to wear?!?!?!!?

I'm not sure what was wrong with me today. But it felt a bit along the lines of the whole world is against me (well, not the world, but WORK) and it was a downhill sob story from there... Not in a good place at the moment.

I think maybe on another tangent, I knew shit was about to hit the fan.

And it has begun.

Something just didn't feel right today and I pretty much took it out on my fearless leader . . . and he probably put it down to PMS. It wasn't!!! I just felt really unhappy at work today. Something along the lines of working too much and not getting the recognition that is deserved. And that pretty much put me in a bad mindset for the rest of the day. I even told him straight out this morning, please don't talk to me because I don't want to talk to you.

He did make me laugh though:

"I can't seem to keep any girl..."

I called Bobert at lunch time for a chat. And he was like 'you sound so unhappy and not your bright bubbly self'. Yep...  I couldn't even pretend. Not that I could say much whilst at work. :-(

Anyway, the melbourne boys made it a little more bearable, especially when Dee called to say thanks for picking up an extra 2% on his placement and he's buttering me up saying he did it on purpose, it was a test etc etc and I'm speaking to him on the phone and i'm like yup yup uh huh....... *goes silent*

*reads the email that just pops up from Matt (GM in Melb)*

"Don't listen to Dee, he's just got a story for everything. Great pick up on the placement"

and Dee's like

"Are you listening to me? ..... Don't read your emails now!!!"

*Melbourne office in the background roaring with laughter*

And things get worse...

I knew something was up as soon as the two people I sit next to start whispering and having closed door conversations. (I have a knack for sussing this kind of stuff out... its like that feeling). Turns out they have decided to let go of my one other close friend in the office... because there 'just isn't enough work'.

The poor girl was supposed to come back from work on Monday after a holiday and now she has nothing to come back to... pretty upsetting. Especially when they are keeping the temp on indefinitely. Life is so unfair sometimes and its when things like this happens that makes me not want to be at work. Just because the business isn't doing as well as it was one year ago ... I just don't understand how we can spend so much of our resources on the Sales side and so little reward and recognition on back office. . . . . And I'm sceptical of what's going on, how things are going to pan out and why some people seem to be above the rules.

I don't even feel like I can trust Nick at the moment. And that is a massive issue.