there is a reason for it.
because there are too many "cooked people" in my locality. as soon as i venture out, i am bound to bump into someone. whether from work. from uni. or from the past. its something i tend to avoid.
but its unavoidable sometimes. even a random monday night dinner at miss saigon. or a 15 minute run around westfield. its strange how life works sometimes.
i received a rather unexpected phone call today. from my credit union.
fraud? i understand how it works and how it comes about. but i dont understand how it affects my card. because i can't for the life of me recall when i used that particular card ever at an ATM. but better safe than sorry.
and i read My Sister's Keeper today. it reminded me a lot of Pink Balloons which was a true story. However, i don't feel that all the characters were worthy in the story - especially not the mother. the decisions that she made - for "both" her daughters; i don't believe they were made with their best interests at heart. it wasn't as heart wrenching as i thought it would be - i only teared up in the final two pages.
and haha (i can't believe i'm about to say this), but considering it was the first proper book since Breaking Dawn it was a pretty good read. at least it got me thinking. i actually have a friend with leukemia. and all the what ifs.
i even brought about a discussion at the dinner table. where we all agreed that we would never put a child through that kind of pain. either child because its not fair and its as though you were playing God. Who gave you - anyone - that right? although, nowadays, you don't need a matched sibling to donate blood and bone marrow.
because there are too many "cooked people" in my locality. as soon as i venture out, i am bound to bump into someone. whether from work. from uni. or from the past. its something i tend to avoid.
but its unavoidable sometimes. even a random monday night dinner at miss saigon. or a 15 minute run around westfield. its strange how life works sometimes.
i received a rather unexpected phone call today. from my credit union.
fraud? i understand how it works and how it comes about. but i dont understand how it affects my card. because i can't for the life of me recall when i used that particular card ever at an ATM. but better safe than sorry.
and i read My Sister's Keeper today. it reminded me a lot of Pink Balloons which was a true story. However, i don't feel that all the characters were worthy in the story - especially not the mother. the decisions that she made - for "both" her daughters; i don't believe they were made with their best interests at heart. it wasn't as heart wrenching as i thought it would be - i only teared up in the final two pages.
and haha (i can't believe i'm about to say this), but considering it was the first proper book since Breaking Dawn it was a pretty good read. at least it got me thinking. i actually have a friend with leukemia. and all the what ifs.
i even brought about a discussion at the dinner table. where we all agreed that we would never put a child through that kind of pain. either child because its not fair and its as though you were playing God. Who gave you - anyone - that right? although, nowadays, you don't need a matched sibling to donate blood and bone marrow.
drama
drama
drama
my family is EPIC to the infinity. my grandmother is EPIC. matriarch to the tee. has to have a say in everything. and i love her but sometimes, she's better off on the backbench. because somethings can't ever be taken back. whether as a joke, blown out of proportion or as a passing statement.
*adds another one of those to the list*
and a "sai lo", we aren't permitted to speak but only to observe...
fireworks
fireworks
fireworks
nessie's first fireworks display at the oval. and it was AWESOME. they must've compensated for not having fireworks last year cause it went on for a while. and they were pretty decent for a local event. cars lined up on the street. carols down at the park. festive season is here!
i've decided to make truffles this year for christmas. and a christmas cake. and maybe give cookies in a jar as gifts.
drama
drama
my family is EPIC to the infinity. my grandmother is EPIC. matriarch to the tee. has to have a say in everything. and i love her but sometimes, she's better off on the backbench. because somethings can't ever be taken back. whether as a joke, blown out of proportion or as a passing statement.
*adds another one of those to the list*
and a "sai lo", we aren't permitted to speak but only to observe...
fireworks
fireworks
fireworks
nessie's first fireworks display at the oval. and it was AWESOME. they must've compensated for not having fireworks last year cause it went on for a while. and they were pretty decent for a local event. cars lined up on the street. carols down at the park. festive season is here!
i've decided to make truffles this year for christmas. and a christmas cake. and maybe give cookies in a jar as gifts.
voluntarily of course.
and was there so much to do or what. i never even realised because before all this, it was always work first. everything second.
now that there is no work. its everything else first.
the fish tank was cleaned. black algae is a downright pain in the bum.
the dogs were bathed. took a monstrous effort no thanks to nessie.
the garden was .. gardened. lol.
the dogs were walked.
the dogs were fed.
etc etc.
and my poor babies are getting their ears bitten off like no tomorrow by flies. and nothing seems to work. vaseline. troy. fly repellant. insect repellant. =( =( i feel their pain.
went for a stroll at coles this evening. bought quilton and more quilton. and lots of doggie mince. yummy.
and was there so much to do or what. i never even realised because before all this, it was always work first. everything second.
now that there is no work. its everything else first.
the fish tank was cleaned. black algae is a downright pain in the bum.
the dogs were bathed. took a monstrous effort no thanks to nessie.
the garden was .. gardened. lol.
the dogs were walked.
the dogs were fed.
etc etc.
and my poor babies are getting their ears bitten off like no tomorrow by flies. and nothing seems to work. vaseline. troy. fly repellant. insect repellant. =( =( i feel their pain.
went for a stroll at coles this evening. bought quilton and more quilton. and lots of doggie mince. yummy.
due to the major over bookings of travelers wanting to go to HK, i couldn't get on a plane.
and like a somersault effect, it had me spiraling into my thoughts, my choices, my decisions and my actions.
Do i really want to go?
Am i really prepared?
Is this the best thing to do?
Was i making this choice because i was angry?
Was i being irrational?
Am i ready to live on my own? Fend for myself?
and the truth is, i just don't know. which i suppose translates to a no. I'm not ready. I'm not prepared.
And i think deep down, i should have known. It's just that i was affected by so many external pressures and advice from others that i was missing the full picture which is what i want for myself. What do i want from myself?
So over this time, i'm going to recollect myself and think long and hard (something i haven't done sincerely since who knows when..) about what i want. and how i want to achieve it.
and like a somersault effect, it had me spiraling into my thoughts, my choices, my decisions and my actions.
Do i really want to go?
Am i really prepared?
Is this the best thing to do?
Was i making this choice because i was angry?
Was i being irrational?
Am i ready to live on my own? Fend for myself?
and the truth is, i just don't know. which i suppose translates to a no. I'm not ready. I'm not prepared.
And i think deep down, i should have known. It's just that i was affected by so many external pressures and advice from others that i was missing the full picture which is what i want for myself. What do i want from myself?
So over this time, i'm going to recollect myself and think long and hard (something i haven't done sincerely since who knows when..) about what i want. and how i want to achieve it.
i wasn't going to write anything. but i haven't updated in a few days. so here goes..
today was pretty much a day of mixed emotions. i got up as though it was another day as an unemployed being. i.e. eat and watch OTH. it changed somewhat towards the afternoon when i needed to pack for my trip.
and it changed even more when my parents came home. at this stage, i was bawling my eyes out not because i was going to miss then but because i was still angry and they think everything they do is right. im always in the wrong. of course, that meant that i never even bothered to say what was bottled up. not that it matters.
now i am in limbo again.
i am prepared. and i am ready. i guess its just a fear of the unknown. i wish things were more concrete. and i hope i will see u all again soon
xoxo
wynwyn
today was pretty much a day of mixed emotions. i got up as though it was another day as an unemployed being. i.e. eat and watch OTH. it changed somewhat towards the afternoon when i needed to pack for my trip.
and it changed even more when my parents came home. at this stage, i was bawling my eyes out not because i was going to miss then but because i was still angry and they think everything they do is right. im always in the wrong. of course, that meant that i never even bothered to say what was bottled up. not that it matters.
now i am in limbo again.
i am prepared. and i am ready. i guess its just a fear of the unknown. i wish things were more concrete. and i hope i will see u all again soon
xoxo
wynwyn
went into tarjay to say bye to people today. lol it was funny when they were ringing me and i was instore. maree and muriell wanted to have a lil chat with me. theyre so sweet when they want to be. and said i would be "truly" missed. LOL. cute. and i was free to come back anytime.. and i would be right at the top of the list always. hahaha so privileged...
then i bummed the rest of the day with val. cafed at mortale. mario super brothers.
WE PASSED WORLD 1.
WE PASSED WORLD 1.
WE PASSED WORLD 1.
... but it took almost 3 and a half hours. yeah.. we suck. -_-"
and we went crazy when we finally got through. lol her dogs were like
then i bummed the rest of the day with val. cafed at mortale. mario super brothers.
WE PASSED WORLD 1.
WE PASSED WORLD 1.
WE PASSED WORLD 1.
... but it took almost 3 and a half hours. yeah.. we suck. -_-"
and we went crazy when we finally got through. lol her dogs were like
WTF?
