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One month away from home really isn't such a long time. It's the equivalent of a longer holiday and it many respects, a lot of the things can kind of just be 'put on hold' for a few days longer until you are home.

And during this time away I haven't felt bored yet. I still have so much of Tokyo that I can see and easily get to and spend time around. One thing is for sure: I haven't really experienced much of the Tokyo nightlife (since I'm really not that kind of person... on my own anyway) and after walking around shopping centres or tourist attractions for 7 or 8 hours straight, you're kind of tired by the time the evening rolls around.

It's hard to believe that I've already spent 3 weeks here. I've tried to do some things that the locals do  - still hard considering most of my colleagues do not live within Tokyo - and I've also done a number of touristy things. It's kind of obvious when you're at a tourist attraction. You don't hear much Japanese. In fact, its lots of mainland Chinese thrown in with the odd English phrase or two. I hear more American accents than Australian. I've managed to be at a couple of locations where there was some festival: Tokyo Dog Festival day yesterday for example. Pampered pooches everywhere but no matter how dolled up they look, I firmly believe that Nessie & Maxxie have a much happier life with a garden, real walks (not being pushed around in a stroller), real friends and real parks to see.

I've done a lot of shopping. And even more window shopping but I should probably assess the space in my suitcase before I go out this last weekend for last minute purchases. I think I have also done more shopping for others than for myself.

I've even managed to find a better supermarket and places where I will probably stock up on necessities when I come back. Toyko is not a cheap city and when you think about it, the subway for that matter is not cheap. 200 Yen or so for a 10 minute ride a few stations and if you are hopping on and off it a few times a day, that is easily over 1,000 Yen in transport fees. Of course, a taxi is even more expensive...

I've felt very safe here. I think I felt a slight tremor on Saturday evening in my building (wasn't sure if it was the washing machine though) as there was an earthquake off the south coast of Japan - very far from Tokyo. It kind of just highlights the need to be aware I guess. You can't very well live in fear.

I am definitely looking forward to some warmer weather although it has been very mild albeit wet. And Christmas BBQs and new year drinks. And I also am dreaming about Hawaii... I wonder when will be the next time we meet oh beautiful island(s).

It's Remembrance Day back home. And apparently here, there is something called National Pocky Day. Say what?

Halfway here and halfway home and I can safely that time has flown. Learning to take the small wins and to take every win for what it is because the culture here is so different. I'm not experiencing a culture shock and so many people said I would but I have embraced this with both eyes open and without judgement. Perhaps it is the forewarning that I received that I am not surprised.

Things are slow here. And vastly different. It's a genuine surprise when I run into the odd one or two familiar faces from home.

My mommy came to visit this week after visiting HK. We did a day trip and lots of shopping (window shopping). She agrees that everything is a lot more expensive that the previous times we'd been here. Prices have risen sharply (their consumption tax has gone up 3%) and our dollar's buying power is weaker. That makes things significantly more expensive. The two things that we consider affordable in Australia: Meat and Fruit/Veg are ridiculously overpriced here. We paid almost 600 Yen the other night for 5 chicken wings and for the same price in Australia, we could get 3 whole kg! Similarly, fruit is sold by the piece here and you are probably looking at 400 or 500 yen for an apple or a pear (they are noticeably ginormous though).

We also had to buy another suitcase (LOL). We always seem to be doing this with the exception of Hawaii earlier this year where my sister and I were totally prepared. Suitcase inside a suitcase plus a Country Road bag each for the win. To be fair, there are a few that are old and we should look at throwing out. And digressing, I would love to own my own suitcase collection - we just have a few that are either just too small or just too big. Each to their own but I want my own hand carry and suitcase (needless to say, preferably a brand-y one...).

Then onto my handbag search. I'm going to do it. I even asked my aunt before my mum left HK if it was cheaper to get there and it's not. It is cheaper in Japan by about A$400...  yeah! Now to get paid so I can buy. Huge month of spending and whilst I am excited that December (and Christmas and New Years is coming), I am really not looking forward to getting back to my Sydney office. One crisis at a time... the more I observe, the more that I feel I'm a minority in Gen Y. What has happened to taking accountability and responsibility? And pride in one's work. And here's a good one: how about using your own brain instead of always asking someone else?!

Time f l i e s .

Another quarter over. Done some much. Had a lot of late nights.

And did a trip to melbourne where we hiked to the 12 apostles. challenging yet rewarding...

I've caught up with some ppl, trying to find the time to catch up more...

and i'm going to work in japan (tokyo) next year for 6 months! excited!

I've had the worst allergies these couple of days and whilst I keep reiterating that I am not sick, everyone sort of tip toes around it and asks if I'm okay. My eyes are watery and my nose is red and dripping like a tab. It's actually quite irritating but it is so sweet that everyone cares.

One of the AEs from Brisbane came down on a day off and took me to lunch yesterday. I felt a bit guilty considering we haven't had the best relationship with a lot of the Qld people. But it was excellent to catch up over lunch and talk about things without eyes and ears around the office. Not to mention the gossip!

We certainly not spoilt for choice are North Sydney. There's probably 3 or 4 really nice places to go if you wanted to splurge a little for lunch. So I picked the Treehouse. Thank goodness I booked cause it was absolutely packed. They do some good dishes coupled with an adequate wine and drink menu and the service is very decent so it turned out to be a good meal. Too bad I had to rush (by rush I mean that I couldn't stay longer than  2 hours) back to the office for a meeting and an urgent approval.

Then the evening, it was Sarah's birthday! Ah... what an interesting event it was! I really made an effort to be on time to this one as I feel bad that every catch up we have, I am chronically late (work...). Anyways, my darling work hubby gave me a lift to the restaurant (oh bless him, he's really sweet when he wants to be) and so I arrived right on time! And.... I was the first person there. Um, awks. At one stage I actually thought I was in the wrong restaurant and freaking out. But all good!

Then the other people started to arrive (I didn't know very many of them and those that I did know, they were really more acquaintances than anything else) so it was a bit of small talk and boring stuff like that. Also, the crowd last night was probably mid-30s as a lot of the invitees were her BF's friends. Some had kids, one of the ladies was pregnant. A few of them were real estate agents so lots of house and property talk. And I picked up three new potential customers... yeah!

So needless to say, my cake was amaze... but that's not what I learnt from last night.

It was really refreshing to see that adults with lives probably very different to mine act just like how my friends and I act today. Even with kids and other responsibilities (they were all school friends), they manage to giggle like girls, gossip and just rehash memories like we do now. It was kind of ... soothing for me to see. I've always wondered what I'd be like in 10 years...

Anyways, I got a pick up last night as was so tired so my sister and Alberto came along. Thanks guys! Saved me a shitload in cab fare! Slept the night away and woke up to a blocked nose. urgh yuck.

Had a cake pick up (they are always late!!!) - need to post about that. And did some grocery shopping - westfield is a bit of a shithouse at the moment but the renos look promising.

Baked some bread. It turned out okay actually but I'm always so dejected that its not super high and round but more 'freeform'. Tasted delish but just looked... homely. Am I expecting too much of myself?

Off to steamboat (the fancy word for hot pot) and the movies now.

And it looks like a few of my friends are going to reconcile.

This is turning out to be a fabulous weekend.

#fulfilled

"I have never touched a bird this way before"

"Massaging a chook is totally the way I imaged my Saturday..."

We managed to fit 14 people, 2 dogs and a baby into the terrace... huge effort and watch 3 movies!!! Although we did skip through Into the Woods. Funniest thing ever though cause we skipped 5 minutes and NO IDEA what was happening. Weirdest movie ever... so not a Disney movie for kids. Mad Max: Fury Road was another weird one... it was literally a road fighting movie... with a guy playing the guitar the whole time??? And we also watched Pitch Perfect.

Catching up with friends and family is always fun, lighthearted and is likely to involve good food.

I felt quite special this week turning another year older - I'd still like to argue that I'm in my mid-20s. Thank you to every single one of the lovely souls who made it happen.

From the coffee guy shouting me a free coffee to the colleagues who offered to buy me one, my boss telling me to leave as early as I can, to those who came to the short lunch despite the rain and cold and my favourite lawyer baking me an incredible Guinness Dark Chocolate cake at 4 AM... thank you so much. It really made my busy day less stressful and more enjoyable. Thank you for the messages an the smiles.

I've been lucky enough this year to catch up with so many people in July.

From PR who I had sushi with on Thursday evening (and we exchanged birthday gifts), to my two favourite blondes and party ladies and an amazing night at The Butler to my nearest and dearest cousin, sister and Albert at Apollo tonight, thank you for the laughs. And the epic Catan game (my sister cheated to win...). And the 3/3 star spotting in Potts Points. Yes... 3 celebrities! Matt Moran was at our restaurant with an actor (but did not know name... so it's really a half point there) and SBS veteran Lee Lin Chin. *starstruck... not!

Walked by a block of toilets with thick black smoke coming out of it and the brigade there and as we drove into the Cross, there was a truck decorated as a fire truck with teenage girls bopping up and down. It was hilarious... definitely a lot of funnies tonight!

Got a week of cakes, bakes, work and events coming up... super excited and what a way to start another year!

End of quarter lunch on Friday. Another lovely location but we really had to work for this one this time. Literally and figuratively - our new CEO wanted the know how we all could help improve the sales team and so we went round the table a few times. Lots to do before the DNA improves.

I am not trying to be snobbish but I'm a bit over (don't get me wrong) really good quality food on spotless plate is a bit boring. Wish we could do other things or make it more exciting somehow.

And oh dear... when too much red wine gets involved (at over $350 a pop...). It's a brand new ball game and we are so much closer when you get drunk with your boss. And you have to pretty much carry her back to your colleagues apartment and make sure she stays out of trouble. Not just my boss, but also one of the commercial directors. What a team we make...!!! It was hilarious yet so troubling at the same time. Way too many "I love you's" in the space of a couple of hours. I'd hate to think of the bill. And we left - on our own accord - but I'm pretty sure if it wasn't for the huge amount of money we spent, we would have been kicked out or banned for life...

Went to see Les Miserables last night with mummy and sissy. Ahh... what a good show it was even with all the unfortunate interruptions. A lot of people came in late and even though they were only permitted to enter after each Act, it was still quite disruptive. A poor guy fainted about 3 minutes from the end of the show... it even threw the actors off! There was a moment of pause. Simon Gleeson - theatrical genius. Just.. wow.

And today, back in the old denim with the apron tied on for a day of baking. It's hard to bake when its cold. Temperature affects everything. Made a huge batch of anzacs and danish butter cookies and a Black Sesame and Green Tea layered cake for my grandma's 97th birthday. 97!!!

I must be out of shape though, was so tired by the end of it. I just want to crawl up in my bed and snuggle and re-watch White Collar. I am also disgusted that I have spent so much money in the first week on the month already. And I want to buy all these books but now debating if I should wait a month. Cause I also just randomly spent a couple of grand on a weekend away in October - soooo needed. Ms S and I (and maybe Ms G!) are going to do the 12 Apostles walk with luxury spa retreat at the end of it. We can't wait.

First weekend of the second half of the year and it is a gooooood one! As much White Collar that I can fit in around my days and nights (yes, I am in love with Matt Bomer). And wine, giggles, junk food and the annual Rusty Chef Cook off. Amazing day. And thanks to Veeda, we pretty much had a free comic show in the evening.

I want to reiterate that I would never voluntarily move further west because the traffic on the weekend is just horrendous. Given, I was going from South to North but bumper to bumper traffic. So not cool. So not worth it.

Anyways, it was late lunchtime by the time I got there with my cake and bag of ice and we got stuck right into it. 3 teams, 3 colours. A taste test to name the most ingredients let my team take the lead early on and pick the protein: pork cutlets! The second team got a whole chicken and the third team got veal roast. Hahaha.

The rule was we had to use the protein, the limited spices available, a few staple ingredients and the ingredients designated to our Orange box (carrots, pumpkin, sweet potato, dried apricots and oranges).

Came up with sweet potato puree with a orange zest and apricot crumbed cutlet and pumpkin and kale ratatouille. It was soooo good!!!!! Although I will admit that we probably needed more texture - like sweet potato crisps (or pork crackling... which didn't work in an hour) to make the dish come together more. And it was the winning dish... beating the next team by an average of 0.3 points. Yay!

I think we all did a variation of very similar dishes to suit the protein - team yellow did shallot fried chicken with tomato relish and green salad and team red did roast veal with mashed potato and strawberry and mint salad. I think we all ran out of salt towards the end so some of the dishes were a bit bland. Tons of fun though, cause we were all drinking and playing boardgames and taking turns to do everything. And then we facetimed Janny for her birthday and ate her cake that I made. Delish.

Tiring day though, to cook and drink and laugh. Tough life. Haha. Veeda is the funniest when she is drunk (and we all knew that years ago). We played her charades game - everyone had to put three names into a hat and then we took turns guessing. We are so original. There were 3 'Terminators/ Arnold S', 2 Chris Pratt and a whole heap of Avengers characters. Too funny.

Christmas in July next... helllllooooo Turducken!!!!!

I actually can't remember the date. All I know it that one day this week, I am 2 years strong - or stupid? I can very confidently say that this week has been the toughest and longest week so far. A minimum of 12 hours each day and being absolutely fried by the end of each day. Only to repeat it again. Not get any fresh air and feel... shattered, mentally drained and unable to sleep. But not defeated, I will never feel as defeated as I was in the last few months of my last job.

I'm so grateful that I have my Kitchenaid & Oven. No matter how tired, it relieves some stress.

But what I was really thinking about today was email. Email etiquette and Email tone. Many years ago, probably in my first full time job, I was taught that there was no tone in email. So untrue. Just like every other communication style, sentences, choice of words, punctuation and structure can be interpreted.

Probably just overtired me speaking and overthinking things. Everything you see is only the tip of the iceberg right?

So so proud today. My little sister has graduated! Yeah! Onwards and upwards and I think I actually enjoyed this ceremony more so than my own. I think it might be the experience I'd gained since graduating - the truly wise words spoken by the Chancellor David Gonski and how I can reflect upon them

"Fight narrowness and be broad in your thinking."

Yes, many graduates specialise in a field and we are absolutely expected to be experts in these areas however I he was referring to the soft skills that are truly developed in the higher education system. We use these in the workforce and to help those around us who have not had the privilege to a University degree. Especially in this day and age where education is paramount. No longer are we in the factory and machinery age but in a century where knowledge and technology run rampant and are viewed as a necessity to succeed. These words really resonated with me today.

It also made me want to go back to a little. Masters? But it would never be the same as my Bachelors. Many times I've wondered what it would be like studying something else or spending more time at Uni or even just learning how to study better in my first two years. Would I have turned out the way I have? Would I be where I am today? Would the same fortunes have come my way?

So I had a lovely day walking around Uni (the drive in was insanely horrendous though) with family, a couple of aunts and uncles and very importantly - Grandma. Yes, she was well enough to go! Many things have changed and some things not so much (like the strange smell when you walk through Mathews and the horrible patterned lecture seats).

And this was followed by an amazing three course lunch at the Devonshire. Pork with crispy pancetta, King Salmon and a Chocolate brownie with milk sorbet. So good. So happy.

is when you are able to sleep like a baby through the night. first night of amazing sleep in a month. perhaps the old camomile tea trick works.

a quiet long weekend (in between lots of 9-5 work - boohoohoo) works for me.

and a doggy play date. ahh ness, I hope you don't shat yourself. But I know you're a good mediator between max and others. And now i feel like i'm packing for two children. Water - check, Bags - check. Snacks - check...

Not a good week. Knew it was trouble before Monday even began.

I haven't slept in two days (just rolled around all night, both nights). I haven't even had a chance to have a real lunch - eating at our desks. I feel like nothing I do gives me closure. And everyone is snappy. Ouch.

In the rare moments that I had a few minutes to collect my thoughts, I came across a job ad where there were some really good key words used. So I wrote them down to include in my resume. It makes me wonder if I should look for a new job. It's just on the cusp of 2 years. I have no doubt that this German company of mine will be the longest serving (to date) on my resume but I always keep one eye open. But the metaphorical foot is not out the door yet.

I decided to forgo the afternoon coffee for a chai. Have had two cups of camomile tea and I am planning to go to bed just after this. Before 10 PM today and here's hoping that I will get some rest. And maybe, just maybe, a little downtime.

The days are literally getting shorter and I feel like I am pushing and pulling and trying to squeeze every last second of the day and juggle things to make it all fit.

Like today, I probably spent 2 hours at my desk tops. Meetings back to back. People pulling me sideways. I had 20 minutes for dinner and it was cake baking time after coming home late. And now I want to wash my hair, shower, catch up on GoT, blog, check emails and attend to the huge pile of paperwork on my desk. But I also want to be in bed by 10:30. Impossible. 

I was supposed to get a reprieve until June. That is the structure of a deal support role ... not to be on call and doing everything, every day of every month. And my weekends, let's not mention those.

Birthday, baby shower, dinner, catch up, bake, repeat. And repeat again. And throw in baking lessons, a wedding, les mis, vivid... yup. No time. Take it off sleep. Or take it off sleep?!

I love my new boss. She is totes awesome. Story for another time. Ahhhh... eyes and ears everywhere. Remember that.

Have you ever done it? I've now done it twice (both in a work environment) and I think both times, the results were fairly consistent. Very high C followed by high S. Actually, more like out of this water high C.

Anyways, as a high C, one of my behavioral patterns is to avoid confrontation. In many respects, I completely agree. In others, not so much.

For example...

When I believe one is entitled to their own opinion and therefore posts a review online reflecting this. And then being questioned by the owners about how genuine my post is because I was a guest at the wedding and not the Bride/Groom. Wow, how insulting. Basically, out of the 200 odd guests that were present that night, only TWO people were CUSTOMERS. Way to shoot yourself in the foot. (great line that was, I will be adding that to my review!).

So I personally believed that the service received that night was not on par with other restaurants that I'd been to as part of a wedding reception. And so I voiced this. Apparently, it ruffled some feathers (GOOD!) and the restaurant have contacted the Bride/Groom to say that are "concerned" with the post one of their guests (i.e. me) left online. Well... this is an open forum. And I am entitled to my opinion. And also, every single thing that I mentioned happened, was said to me or people in my vicinity or was blatantly observed.

I'm basically being silenced which really pisses me off. Actually, it's the fact that they QUESTIONED the authenticity of my post and THEN asked the Bride/Groom to contact me to REMOVE my comment that irks me. What? Did I hit too many sore spots? I was too on the money? It caused an embarrassment to the restaurant? That is the WHOLE POINT of reviews on forums such as urbanspoon!

This. is. not. over.

It was bound to catch up with me sometime. I wasn't to get away so easily.

So the weekend with all its excitement and glory has worn me down. It was a little too cool and probably a whole ton of not enough sleep. Wedding, cake, cake, delivery, dinner, late night, discussing rusty chef, catching up...

Hello Monday... feeling sick. Although it really didn't onset until late in the afternoon when I was sneezing a lot (I am not a sneezer) and nose was starting to run, throat was ticklish... :( And we went out for dinner again.

So I've been like forcing myself to drink litres of this chinese herbal tea. It's meant to work wonders, I think if I wasn't drinking it, I'd be a lot worse. I want to be well enough to go to work tomorrow. Gosh, it's like bloody drama-ville. I feel like we're in high school.

How did the team get is so wrong?

Ah... what a blessing to have little rays of sunshine, ambient temperatures and an awesome caterer (i.e. me!). Oh and each other, friends and family, etc etc. ;)

Here's a lovely shot of my sis, my cheekiest nephew and myself at the ceremony.


The hills is a long drive from St George. Add a car accident and weekend traffic and it's pretty horrendous. In both directions. Nonetheless, we were prepared and left with enough time to get there early enough to help set up the stuff I'd helped make - macarons, biscotti, cookies, cake pops and cupcakes.

All I am going to say is that their helpers weren't as helpful as required. So my sister and I stepped in like the amazing cousins that we are.

Did not expect the food to go so quickly. I made double what they asked. And I'm so bummed that I completely forgot to take a photo. Oh wells. There may be another wedding, another time, another couple (of course). A lot of people lingered so the food didn't. There was hot catering too, that went like hot cakes.

Have to say, there were so teary moments and some rather funny ones.

Reception for us was like... yep, okay, we'll babysit the kids! HAHAHA Carmen's bouquet throwing was such an anti-climax. We had full prepared (as a joke to liven things up) to jump on the other girls AFL-style and full make a hilarious scene... only for her to throw the bouquet... into the lights above and fall at the feet of the girl who most desperately and I mean desperately wanted the bouquet. Too funny! Maybe we should have tackled her? Carmen wanted to re-do it and said girl was like 'No! It's mine!'. I guess she wants to get married... like really really soon???

Otherwise, it was a lovely night as you'd expect.

Oh and cake you ask?

AMAZEBALLS. . .

The old-fashioned, left-handed, softly spoken kind. I'm not artist / decorator so it was a rather un-scintillating conversation. I mean, yeah, I like it when buildings are restored and look beautiful but I'd rather it structurally sound first. Especially if you're going to take a good chunk of my hard earned cash.

On another note, my new boss is back and we're right back into it. I need to think of my development goals and plan. At least I got my mentor down packed. Someone to raise me up. Ah... can't wait. I'm got the best seat in the house for the massive face palm that I hope will happen but at the same time I'm going to get as much experience and knowledge I can starting from now until the end of the year. I want that promotion - sooner rather than later.

But at the same time, I see so many fish floating around, not knowing what to do with themselves. Honestly, grow a backbone and get pro-active. It is so true when they say that your future and development is in your own hands. Sure, connections would help immensely. But they don't grow on a tree. Respect is earnt. Connections are built on networking. You can't just "leverage" off mine. I'm happy to share but it won't be as helpful as going out there, promoting yourself and taking charge. Not sure how many times I've said it - it's getting old fast (at least I think so); especially when said people then whinge to me that they can't find a new job, or didn't get that promotion or payrise etc etc. Or when I give you a piece of advice and you don't heed it. umm... take it from someone who has literally been there, done that.

Went for my morning run this AM with the two rascals. And first thing they do? Chuck a dump down at the park. I was cleaning up after them and a council worker was tending to the grass. Said good morning, so lovely to see someone so friendly around - made my morning. The people on the train however... different story. So selfish. Don't move up or down and just crowd the access points. It's a team effort guys to get the trains efficient and run on time. You standing and not moving does not help!

Tried out my first vegan cake on the weekend. Fed it to the piggys at work - they liked it! Yes! So I am going with this recipe. Happy days. Vegan ingredients (e.g. chocolate) - unhappy wallet...

There's a reason why Chau is a pro. She told me that my tiers were slightly slanted and needed patching. He he.. thanks my friend! She's just around the corner from my cousins place and super jealous of her own studio workspace at the back of the house. I want!

Then my sister and I went for a drive to Liverpool to take a look at one of the new developments there. Yeah...... no. Not even for investment. Totally over hyped and over priced. It's not even that far from the station and shopping centre. I'm sorry, but I don't consider views of the Georges River much of a selling point.

Have had such a productive morning (I love it when I get up early cause usually I am lounging in bed!) and now winding down watching Struggle Street (what's the hype about? I see it as a pretty accurate description), a ginger beer and playing with my ghd.

Going to Bishop Sessa tonight... it is the first event of many in the next 3 weeks. Wooo...

Um.... whoever told me that the cinemas at my local were refurbished, I don't know what your definition of refurbished is but I definitely say it's still junk. I rate it 0/5 for comfort, value and ambience. Seats were so worn, felt funny and seriously my butt was hurting after the movie. Not again in another 5 years - oh by which time I will no longer be living in the area. We're going back to Burwood / Bondi / George St next time. Even Bevo would have done better.

But it was an impromptu night with my sister watching Pitch Perfect 2. Hilarious although I reckon the first one was better. I think we were laughing through the whole movie. Hehehe. Some of the jokes were like wtf?! They're allowed to say that?! The singing and mash ups were pretty cool though! Glad we got to see it last night, way too much going on to be able to fit a movie in in the next few weeks.

On another note, back to the ambience and comfort of Westfield and the shops within. Shocking. I mean I know the refit is going on but seriously could be better managed. Maybe I'm just now use to walking around the city (I literally haven't been to Westfield excl Coles in months and months). Maybe cause I've seen how posh Miranda is. Even the blenders at the boost store were old. So much so that I had a slushie and not a smoothie. Urgh that was pretty bad. Pretty much a waste of money. That could have been $7 towards my saving goal!!!

Very tough savings plan in place. It leaves me with about $1,500 per month for mortgage repayments & everyday living expenses & any funding that my be required by my business. It is going to be a huge win for me if I can achieve this. I sure hope so and I also hope that I will have a tenant in there for the rest of the year. This will make it very achievable. If not, then I will pretty much have to give myself $50 a week for food, travel and leisure to try and make it. In other words, not going to happen. Goodbye two coffees a day, it was nice knowing you. And the guys and girls at the coffee shop!

In other news, I found out that my new credit card offers a FREE bottle of wine at many Sydney establishments that I would frequent if I paid by card. That is definitely going to be put on the list!

My work husband says I whinge too much (to him anyway). I agree. I need to be the better person. And also not let her under my skin. He's there to listen and to mentor me but it doesn't help if I can't be mature about it. Pick my battles.

I got my hair cut today. I asked for 2 inches off and 2 inches layered - same as last time about 6 months ago. I probably got 4 inches off and a hugely Asian layered look. Not sure I'm thrilled. Especially with the wedding in two weeks. Maybe I can curl it or something...

It was birthday week at work. Everyday this past week, it was someone's birthday and even more special that they were all my friends! Lots to celebrate and an amazing cake from yours truly.

Paramount CP... we won't be back. Average brunch and disappointingly, very ordinary coffee. And paid parking...?

S4 Phone battery died today while I was out - and without heavy use. Goes to show it can't last 7 hours without a charge. Looking more like back to iPhone I go... because I am sure it is a software/OS issue rather than battery.

I'm amazed at the number of people still in town even with the torrential rain. Had a beer at the Slip Inn for our dear mads' birthday. Another year, another beer! Driving around the city is not fun - especially in wet weather and with lots of road closures due to construction work. Half an hour from Wynyard end of Pitt St to Martin Place end of Pitt St. Could have walked it twice over.

Tomorrow, after wakie wakie is bakie bakie day. So excited as it is pro-bono and stuff I want to do!

I've got so much to say that I can't put it into words and so, I've been staring at this blank page for the last few minutes.

I don't know why I waste so much time thinking of others. Others who are so not worth my time but my mind is reeling. Just blatantly stupid people who want to reap the rewards of high profile roles without actually doing the work. And admitting to it too. And so... how do you plan on getting there?

I can't believe I sat through an hour with her. One on one. To discuss the new role. Or more like her trying to dictate to me. Nice try. I know how to read between the lines. And take everything with a pinch of salt.

How can you day you are 5/5 comfortable with doing something yet you have zero interest in doing it? What an oxymoron is there ever was one. Honestly where does she think so gets off?

I can't wait till my new boss is back from leave. We are going to have to iron a lot of things out.

I also missed our coffee window with my work hubby. And I really needed it today too. Need his consoling. :( And to tell me I'm being stupid. At least I can turn to my finance buddies.

It's that feeling again. Where for a few nights (like...2) this week I have had nothing to do. Nothing to watch. No work to catch up on. No admin. No paperwork. No friends...

And I think to myself... wouldn't it be fun to do another course? Or a degree? Or something more useful with my time rather than just waiting for bedtime (or so it feels like)? Isn't a goal in like to absorb as much knowledge as you can? The last time this happened, I was looking at the Sydney Universities and looking up a Masters in Law. And I had even checked when the next enrollments would be and what was required. . .

Let's hope this is another phase. Like the electric piano one. Lol.

Not getting out of my jammies!! And Scones with clotted cream and Bitton jam for brekkie? Yes please! But only as a one off... Decided to work from home today. I wasn't about to brave the weather for a third day in a row and I'm glad I have the option to stay at home. And I'm happy to say that I don't abuse the system.

We had a lovely afternoon yesterday at Rockpool B&G for the quarterly lunch. Wow, some of the guys sure can pick a noice nice wine. I shudder to think how much was spent. But the food was delish. I think I liked the sides more than my steak but that was down to personal choice so... no one to blame but myself!

I did pick the cocktails for everyone. Winner!!!! Tried to stick around as late as we could to try and avoid the storm but I think it just got worse with time so... we tried to brave it around 6. I headed home.. lucky trains were still running. Went to sleep at 8 (hahaha what an old nanny!!!) and got up at 6 and was so undecided on whether or not I was going to trek it in and then... torrential rain. Nope... not going to even bother. So those hunter boots I bought earlier this year... still unworn!

Not sure how it happened but the other 2 ladies in my team managed to both have a week off this past week. And boy, was I hammered or was I hammered? Working late, taking work home and for a quiet period, working on the weekend... a lot. :-(

It helps to have the day broken up or extended. Such as a super quick Tuesday wine with Sarah. Just to check up on her and make sure she's doing ok. A lot's been going on in her life these past two months and thought some baked goods wouldn't go awry.

Then we had a little celebration for Donna's whopping (I kid) 27th birthday. Belly bao,.. amazing A-MAZING fried chicken and yummy cocktails. I personally did not taste any alcohol. We were discussing engagement rings... funny right? I even managed to fit in an overdue grocery shop after this event.

Attended a funeral on Friday. Always the emotional one... think I cry more with age? I haven't been to very many of these (and one who hope that you don't at this age) but it was a lady who was pretty much my mum's mom-away-from-home. But some of the stuff that happened during and after the service.... you'd think you only see it happen in movies / soapies / tv. Still trying to figure out why.

I was always pretty drained by Friday afternoon but there was so much more work to do. And baking... not sure what happened. The last couple of days have been a bit of a blur.

If I wasn't on my laptop I was in the kitchen and I think last night, was up until about 1 a.m. reviewing quotes. Reminds me of uni days and cramming. Haha! But I get paid for it now...

Dropped off a cake to Randwick.. literally around the corner from UNSW. Ahh nostalgia. I also wished I lived in the area. Needs RICH HUBBY AND HIGH PAYING JOB!!! Finally have a little time to ... unwind. That sounds so good.

Our boss is away this week. So his boss flew all the way from Singapore to babysit us! Jokes... I think it was just timing. No Krug this time although I do like Mark's honesty when he's around. Much respect for the man. Doesn't play the hardcore political game (at least not to your face).

It's been a busy 4 day week with Thursday and Friday being unusually busy! But I did manage to squeeze in a boozy lunch with our illustrious new CFO and my fav legal person at the Greens (owned by the same people who did the Grounds). And then the afternoon was shoe shopping! A bit of a team building / downtime for the ladies in the team.

I think we embarrassed ourselves in Christian Louboutin. Ha ha ha with one colleague saying 'We need to find the UGLIEST shoes in the store!' *cringe* But it was for a competition at work. And good fun.

Cocktails at Zeta Bar was awesome too.. just sitting there for a few hours and sipping cocktails. I'm there! The Singapore Mule was delicious and spicy and the same time. We had enough time to discuss non-work and work related topics. And how important development is. I totally agree... the aim is UP!

In many ways, it is a "wasted" long weekend for me. No big plans, no plans to visit the Easter Show, or Road Trip or Get together. Mainly because of the busy Good Friday and Saturday with baking and 3 pretty big orders to fulfil. But now that they are all done, I feel like its nap time and I just can't bring myself to organise or do anything else. Isn't that just poor form?

I had a wonderful nap yesterday and I kind of wish I had a huge garden with beautiful flowers and a hammock between two giant trees. But who would take care of said garden for me? Where would this place be?

Anyways, I was kind of thinking of the cakes that I'd made. Most of these were via referrals so I knew someone who the customer also know - a mutual friend. Small worlds. I was thinking about the Thomas cake I made in particular as I'd also done the Christening cake for her little boy when he was just a baby. That was about 3 years ago. Time flies and I've come a long way since then. I was also thinking of April Fool's Day where one of my friends as an April Fool's joke had said she was pregnant. And I was just thinking that her first son is turning 7 this year. 7! It made me think of Target (also because a huge chapter has closed for another friend of mine in relation to this) and 7 years ago, I was still working at target. Look at where I am now. . . it kind of puts things in perspective. Just yesterday, I was thinking about what I had done with my life (along the lines of "not much").

7 years is a long time. What will the next 7 bring? Apparently 28 is the best year of your 20s so I still have some time ;)

Happy Easter everyone. Even if you aren't religious (shoots hand up), it's a great time for reflection. and rest And for eating Chocolate Eggs.

Been spending small amounts of time this past week after dinner in front of the telly with the fambam. And most nights, MKR was on. And in one of the elimination challenges, they made what they called Bomboloni - a kind of Italian donut. Their recipe had ricotta which made them more zeppole but no one on the show bothered to correct the girls.

So out of interest, I wanted to make Bomboloni one night since we have so many people over for dinner and so wouldn't go to waist or waste. I found a recipe and they were delicious! Sugar coated, lemony balls of dough, puffed and fried. Yes, Churros are way easier but these are delicious in their own little way especially when they're still hot. Crispy coating, sugar melting and pillowy soft on the inside. It can be a pretty good comfort food. Will have to add this one of to the list of dinner party items.

Makes me dream of having my own house, with my own kitchen and outdoor entertaining area. Then I remember the cost of living and housing and how unattainable it can all be. Work play... eat!

The temperature dropped to single digits this morning somewhere in Sydney I am sure. And my body just could not cope with it today and even though I was dressed in a pretty woolly cardigan (very appropriate for Autumn), I was feeling cold all day - even the two times when we walked in the sun to get coffee. I'm glad I didn't catch a cold.

It was so cold that at one stage, people were touching my hands just to see if I was lying and my work hubby said to me 'wow, you do have cold hands... but a warm heart'. Ngaw. Even if it is an old wives' tale, it was very sweet. Needed someone to say something nice after this long week. And not to overthink things.

We're doing it very tough this first quarter. You can tell cause we had drunk 6 bottles of wine between about 12 people in about an hour. Usually we only pop open 2 or 3 bottles on Friday afternoons. Even I enjoyed a glass of pinot - sweet and smooth. I'm not a usual red drinker but I guess being cold and the only other option being Chardonnay (no thank you) makes you reassess.

Helped Carmen this evening with her culinary dishes for tomorrow - tiramisu and scones. She's hosting about 2 small groups of people who will be featured in their Wedding Video. She needs to come and watch me prep for High Tea! Will blow her mind... ;)

I'm looking forward to a sleep in. Then check work email. Perhaps make hot cross buns. I promised everyone donuts for dessert and want to fit in Easter cupcakes somewhere. Yep, another unplanned but busy weekend!

Last two weeks of quarter (yes, I have come to the realisation that I live my life in quarters) and do not have anything extra planned. Minimal orders, no outings, every additional second and moment of my time is devoted to my trusty lenovo laptop which connects me to this thing called work. This quarter, it wasn't necessary. There's plenty of time during the usual work hours of 8-6 that I am cruising.

However, I still have been really tired. I take my time with things now that I know that there is time. Like making little Ethan's cake. Took my time indeed.

We had a fun afternoon yesterday at Ethan's first birthday party. Even if we were put in charge of the kids games. So tiring but so funny... (TOTALLY NOT RIGGED!!! NOT!)

And omg the food was sooooo nomnomnomnom. Andrew's dad use to be the head dim sum chef at Emperor's Garden or something in Chinatown. And he made char siu bao, siu mai, spring rolls, singapore noodles, fish balls, fried chicken wings. I WISH I HAD A BOX!!!! Epic awesome.

And then today...

I'm really glad to say that I have dedicated this afternoon to my room though. Cleaning, wiping, throwing things out, donating and rearranging (the books on the bookshelf). It's so much neater and it feels lighter! Not sure that that's possible...

This needs work. I need to work on it. A lot. I know.

I wish I'd done this sooner and not half-assed on a weeknight after coming home late from the office.

Needs more photos (I need to post this in general). More colour? More excitement.

Onwards and upwards - my two goals this week are to update my blog templates (2 to do) and update resume. I can do it!

Friday drinks just went up a notch. The lovely Karen bought in a bottle of Hendricks gin and Chris, one of our senior legal people went to buy tonic, cucumbers and lime. We are so spoilt. We had straws and ice cubes and comfy chairs that it was like our own wine and cocktail bar. It was a good afternoon. And there was a lot of intellectual (and judgmental) chatter going on - mostly about the C level execs and how perception and imagine is everything.

It was more about how our regional President is portrayed as the "mother" yet we are in an industry that is run by men so more than anything, we need to keep away from these images and stereotypes. There is a long way to go until we drop the clear perception of using the words "female leaders" rather than just "leaders". Should there be a difference? Absolutely not.

I feel like I have been mulling things over again and again. And rethinking things through and through. It makes you feel like you are in a little bit of a rut. And difficult to get out. Or maybe I am just waiting for something to pick me up and pull me out. It's hard to explain... and it might also be the adrenalin of having so much on in the past few weeks to something that's almost the exact opposite of it. Maybe this is how people who go into retirement feel like?

Bliss.

Jam packed with extra sugar loaded weekend. . .

THREE CAKES: 2 Custom and One of those deliciously sinful Caramel and Chocolate Ombre Cakes. It made for a very busy Friday night, Saturday afternoon and Saturday after-hours.

Then add, apple picking @ Bilpin + helping Jan pack + cake deliveries = let me sleep in one morning... please?!

Early bedtime for me today...

Anyways, apple picking was awesome. We got there early enough this year to have our pick of Fuji, Jonathons, Delicious, Golden Delicious, Plums, Pears and Raspberries. Plus cider and juice! Then we went for viet in Cabramatta. It was a pretty long drive and morning and afternoon.

I was so tired by the time we made it home, I had to take a 30 minute powernap. They really do do wonders.

Then more cake decorating and going over to Ms Jan's plan to help for pack for London. It didn't really matter what my opinion was though... she just kept on going. Lol. She will run out of space so fast...

Sunday morning was all about deliveries to the inner west - the city side. Oh how I want to own a place there sometimes...

I also ate Oporto's out of hunger for the first time in probably a year. It tasted pretty shit. Should have gone maccas or kfc instead if i was going to go down the junk food route... oh wells. Must run tomorrow.

With some lots, I make a huge effort. With others, I make none. It's something I want to change this year (we'll see how much truth there is to that in about 10 months).

So it felt a little like driving around Sydney today.

First off, the airport to pick up my aunt and uncle who are staying with us and visiting. Yawn, it was too early for me. Sunday is my designated sleep in day.

Second, off to Burwood to pick up Ms Jetsetter and off to Marrickville for a very very overdue catch up with Amanda and her bubba. OMG I can't believe he's 8 months. Such an easy going, happy baby. Funny thing was that he (obviously) did not look like the two asian girls. Neither did he look like the tanned, olive skinned lady he calls Mumma. He's all fair skin and blue eyes like his dad. Soooo funny. We got quite a few looks (probably cause we were all so young too?)

"Please come to my Ethan's party! Please come to my Ethan's party!" 

Today really felt more like a Saturday. But it's a work day tomorrow and it marks the beginning of a busy cake-fueled week. I'm excited!

It wasn't so hard to settle back into the routine of work more so, it was hard when there's little to do except the crappy stuff. But that's another story.

It's pretty cool that outside of work, there have been numerous events to keep one busy. We did a huge chinese seafood dinner in Bevo with Jan and friends. 3 whopping crabs and 2 massive plates of pipis and a giant fish plus the usual non-seafood dishes. Between 14 of us... and guess what? We demolished it. Hands down, this crowd can eat. And eat lots. Something I will always admire about this bunch because it does not matter how much food it on the table.

I also signed up to city2surf. Here we go!

And dog date, pizza, buffalo wings, pimms, rush hour 2 and dixit as an impromptu and very informal dinner thing at my place. Again... 4 pizzas, salad and 2 whole kgs of chicken wings... demolished between 5!!! We were going to go to another person's place but a few unfortunate events occurred. Mac and Maxxie got into a fight. Mac also ran into the glass door (LOL moment of the night). There was blood but no one was seriously injured. Oscar and Nessie soo chill. And man... North Turramurra is a long drive to my place. So I'm so glad they came.

Finally got around to restocking the baking fridge. Was out of all dairy and I've got orders coming up... gotta turn that oven back on.