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For a moment, I thought this would be a less challenging and hectic year that the last. I have quite safety and confidently ruled that out.

the thing is though, i'm not sad. i'm motivated. and i sincerely wish them all the best. despite what i may say to them at this very moment.

Dee, my melbourne buddy, my partner in crime, clown and asian counterpart, i'm sorry we stuffed up your last pay. lol. but your boss never passed on the additional details. thanks for always listening and in turn, you are welcome for all the additional help you received from me! i know you are going to do so well in your next endeavors and i can't wait to see your florist and cafe when it is up and running. i am going to hold you to that invite to melbourne! looking forward to catching up as mates!

Nick, my "knight in shining armour" (so you say), confidant, friend and in many ways my rock, there's still one more week!!! but i can tell that youre over it and just counting down the days. i don't like how you just forward everything to me now and i won't cope without you there during payroll. Tweedledee-dee and Tweedledumb aren't qualified to do your job despite what they think and i know that i will get angsty and frustrated in 2 weeks time when they are reviewing without you there. not sure who i am going to turn to so... YOU BETTER BE ON WHATSAPP WHEN I NEED YOU!

i just hope that my time now is limited...

When there's money in my wallet, it just ... goes.

So went by the aquarium today and yeah well, bought some goldfish. Because i thought it was a good idea in the morning when the fish tank had been cleaned.

Then realised that we didn't have any air pumps left.

So i had to buy that too.

And then the guy was like, do you have the valves and tubes? And i was like... dammit. No. They were thrown out.

So i had to buy that as well.

-_-"

It was like $100.

And that's after spending $200 at Dan Murphy's last night. Albeit it was for sis' birthday. Dad and I pretty much also bought a case for ourselves...... HAHAHA.

Had viet for lunch 2 days in a row. I think my pho craving has been satisfied for a while.

I now really want to have a falafel kebab from that lebanese place in westfield.

Anyways, there goes my weekend. I did not expect to have so much to do at home . . .

Again, sidetracked from things that I should be doing.

Director is recruiting for a new finance member to replace my boss who is leaving at the end of this month. And in a way, it has made me think about what has happened and how i've changed over the last 18 months.

18 months ago, i had my foot out the door. Today, not much has changed in that respect except that i would say half my body and my head is out the door...

18 months ago, when I met my boss, i was pretty uncaring of what he had to say and what he said he'd bring to the team. And i think my attitude towards meeting potential new colleagues at that time was pretty immature and i didn't see it as an opportunity to learn more about myself and how to connect with others. What questions to ask when meeting / interviewing someone, etc. Possibly made a judgement before I even got to know him (and this was quite heavily influenced by my 'manager' at the time who turned out to be a total cow anyway).

And whilst I feel like i no longer want to build any further relationships where i currently am, i think that it is in my best interests and for my personal self development to come into these meetings with a positive attitude and as a way of learning more about myself and of other people in this industry. It is always interesting to hear another person's story and the experiences they have had along the way.

i met 3 people in the last 2 days - all very different personalities and i definitely am able to see that there are very difference dynamics in the way people will approach certain types of situations. Further, i think i can identify the types of personalities i would be able to work with and those that i would probably struggle with. As much as i love a challenge, complete arrogance and stubborn, straight down the line process driven individuals don't do so well with me. No humour, no fun.

Whilst I am hoping for a new job as soon as possible, I also hope that what we've achieved in our team in the last 18 months will continue and that there is some sort of legacy. And i say this after one of the shittest days in the office in terms of internal struggle and divide.

Think positive!

As predicted, its been a busy week or two.

and you refer to your goal this year to not be complacent.

I don't feel like I overly have yet I am not seeing results.

which leads me to my second goal:

Don't give up!

5 hour return drive for this little terror today

xxx

Welcome to the family!

Time really does fly sometimes. I can't believe we're into April already.

Hong Kong came and went. Lots of shopping and catching up in the span of 3 lightning quick days. And a wedding in between. Went to High Tea with my deal Val. Stocked up on baking goods. Clothes. Shoes. Causeway Bay. TST. Loved it.

Came back and catch up after another. Sarah and Madison for dinner at our little chinese gem (it's in a bowler's club so not that great - just our special haunt).

The Grounds today with my usual crazy bunch. and OMG. I have to hand it to Vivian. So impressed by it all. And a little in awe. Loved the guy who took our coffee order and photo-bombed us. Food was good, very filling and coffee was amazing. We all had two except Cherry. Loved the farm animals and the garden atmosphere. Thought the lemonade stand was genius.

Then ran some errands this afternoon in preparation of our new pup. Picked up grandma for dinner back at my place, then had to rush out for Carl's baby's banquet.

Good food, got to know some more UNSW/Comm students. Small world sometimes.

Picking up Maxxie tomorrow... excited excited excited!

I also have a lot of "work" to do. Need to get onto Donna's cake, get Wendie's grocery list sorted and sort out a part of my life that needs lots of attention at the moment. Stressed, tired but motivated...