fuchsia fragments

cant sleep.
cant go anywhere online cause net's capped.
the only thing i did do was go swimming. refreshing.
oh and i got rid of my webcam and scanner. more chucking thing out mood.
this was after my computer restarted itself about 6 times today. each time, made me increasingly frustrated. so i kicked the tower a few times. heard like an electrical buzz. knew something was wrong.
guess i should keep this short so that i will have a chance of publishing it. of course, in saying so, im still waiting for the publish button to load...

(Kotomi Kyouno - Lovely Strains)
although really tired and fatigued, am currently feeling free, relieved, a little less stressed.
i got up earlier than my alarm like.. weirdness. especially since i only got bout 5 hours of sleep. anyhow, i drove today, to city to pick up anna and donna. and i have great timing, allowed 45 minutes to get to the city in peak hour and it took 45 minutes =D. before that, got a few litres of really expensive petrol (my poor poor wallet) and a donut.. that i didnt finish until like lunch. haha picked up rach and headed to ct via newtown. traffic was bad but it couldnt been worse. so picked up the other two at haymarket glorias.. where i got much needed coffee... mmmm. then proceeded to randwick races. hahaha and we went via our bus stop.. and anna and dondon were like 'do we see anyone we know?? slow down!!' that was soo funny. and they were like, doesnt it feel good to drive into the parking area with people watching u? LOL in a way, yes it does =P
post-exam speculation is always no fun so we kept it to a minimum. instead, we discussed how heaps of people left the micro exam early.. the first person to leave left about 25 minutes into the exam. so we came to two conclusions: either he didnt understand the questions so he couldnt do them and therefore guessed, or, he was so well prepared that he was sure that he would do really well. of course, we would never do that since we've always been told (by allum especially) that we should never leave an exam early. although i have once, for theory. but i suppose thats sort of different. but for micro, heaps of people left, when there was bout 25 minutes left, i look up and about a quarter of the people had left.
had bout 2 n half hours after micro so had to run valvals errand. well, rach did since i was driving, circled the uni three times and then ended up at maccas for some lunchtime studying. and where their toilets were out of toilet paper =( damn them. had to go back to races for a toilet?! qma in the arvo. shall not dwell on it..
haha then we aimlessly drove around for a bit. that is, after getting out of the parking.. that was havoc all the way. loads and loads of green and reds funny funny. and we were in the car looking at all the models. came to conclusion that some ppl must be extremely rich (the new bmws, pegeuot, alfa, lexus) and the well off (new astras, mazda3s, civics, yaris, lancer). of course, they couldve been the international students who had mummy and daddys credit card. but well, the number of new model cars was kinda surprising.
drove to city via scg cause anna wanted to get tickets from ticketek. they werent open. so we drove to entertainment centre only to find that its turned into ticketmaster.. so no, we didnt find a tickettek and city driving is stressful. damn pedestrians.. im talking bout the asians. argh! but well, it was the chinatwn/marketct area. then dropped her off at the red lights near the bus stop.. and headed back to westfield to meet val for some bumming. considering we got there after 5, there wasnt much to do since everything was closing. haha so we went to maccas food court.. where she very unwisely had chips and thickshake with rach and i looking at her going 'r u sure u should eat that? uve been on a liquid diet for the past few days..' and yes, she felt a little queasy afta. *shrugs*
and i think a 'exam family shopping day' is in the plannings.. one day..
when i came home, first thing i did was clean my room. now it feels.. clean =D =D then really had to cut my nails.. digging into my skin. apart from that, just sitting here, sculled bout 3 bottles of water.. was so thirsty.. i was going to go for a swim.. but got home like 6.. was a bit late.. so prolly tomorrow.. if i dont sleep in too much.. but i could go in the arvo. we'll see.

i got up before 7 today. like.. when was the last time i did that??? never maybe.. i mean, i didnt even get up this early for school.. and im use to sleeping in until at least 8!! to get up at 6:45 is soo.. painful. the sun was barely out.. it was cold and i only got like 5 hours sleep. absolute max.
even the walk to the station was.. quieter. different. there were more dogs and their owners about. more elderly people doing their tai chi and weirdo stretches on the benches in the park. but there were little to no cars parked on the street, there werent any buses around.. and da bread shop didnt have pineapple bread yet! =(
got to central on a normal BJ train. different again. and hahaha at the station, you sooo could tell who was going where. like there were these fobby asian chics who were all holding the financial textbook. its like.. 'we know were youre going..' haha funny.
at the bus stop, again it was almost chaos. cause we had to catch a different bus.. and since buses in sydney dont stop at a specific point.. people sort of just run and crowd around.. so we had to wait for like.. the 5 or 6th bus.. not to mention bumped into a few people *cough* on the way..
anyhow, we made it on time, 'upper tea house'. haha it smelt funny and my table had grooves in it.. not nice when ur colouring bubbles on the mc answer sheet. it was 'dainty' and probably one of the older buildings. considering rachael said that her panarama room was just that. sounds nice.
after the exam.. we sort of walked aimlessly along anzac pde.. back and forth until we stopped at ole. where they had some food. and donna was deciding. should i go back to uni? or should i not? should i go back to uni.. or should i not? haha and me thinking bout driving to the racecourse on friday simply because i did not like waiting for a bus and ppl seemed so.. all over the place. *shrugs* or it could be an excuse just to drive. so then we were like where do i pick up dondon and anna .. blah blah. she decided to go home.. but that was like her 3rd decision. and we had to fun for the bus.. apparently, donna thought i wasnt going to. but it was fun. hahahahaha at least i wasnt wearing thongs today.
so now.. its naptime, then more studying. what a wonderful life..

staying up until the early morning hours of the next days means sleeping in.. to be wakened by my phone.
dear val.. poor val actually. shes in hospital =( (and that makes two people this year who are or have been in hospital.. three actually). which means she cant do the mid sessions. just like how mary had to defer.. i wonder why everything happens this year...
pretty quiet day.. sun was out which was nice.. went for a walk. accounting stuff today.. still a long way to go. and just realised that i have to be up early to catch a heaps earlier train if its a 9 oclock exam.. damn. and i thought 10 oclock lectures were early. gonna b heaps packed train i think.

i am in the mood to chuck things out.
ive already emptied my wardrobe..
and chucked a whole bunch of old jewellery..
wats next?

it was either micro or acct.. i opted for micro.
read through the lecture slides and made notes.. which i'll incorporate with the chapter summaries.. that i didnt have to summarise myself. should use the study guide for some practice questions.. nights still early i suppose. should get back to it.
legt marks were finally posted as were qma (which i already knew). sort of disappointed with legal mark.. but well.. focus focus.
was really cold today.. during the day.. i had the blinds drawn open so the sun could warm up the room.. worked until the sun set obviously.. then it got really cold. and still is. think i'll have to get another blanket soon. mid april is kinda early for this kinda chilliness.

slept in a bit.. so i headed to the pool around 11:30. which, i thought, was a good time cause there'd be less people. not quite so today. the lanes that are usually free were taken up by learn to swim primary school kids.. and then when that finished, that inflated the very gay looking 'obstacle course'. pfft, last time i recall, ADULTS pay a much higher entry fee than kids.. why do they get all the benefits? so did my 100, then went to the spas.. surprisingly, it wasnt so warm.. well i was feeling cold. prolly cause of the breeze outside.
then after, i went for a drive.. sort of. just around.. its not like i live in the hills where houses are heaps far apart.. sort of went down king georges (wasnt even planned) through beverly to kingsgrove and home.. didnt even take 20 minutes.. sort of juss aimlessly drove around.. cause i havent driven anywhere that far in ages. just the pool and westfield mostly.
i dont understand why kids are fascinated with being ridiculously stupid. you would think that if a door is shut, that peeking under it, knocking on it and running away and pretending to turn the knob is purely stupid, idiotic, retarded, gay, immature, insane... weird, bizarre, silly, childish...

Small Of Two Pieces

Run through the cold of the night
As passion burns in your heart
Ready to fight, a knife held close by your side
Like a proud wolf alone in the dark
With eyes that watch the world
And my name like a shadow
On the face of the moon

Broken mirror, a million shades of light
The old echo fades away
But just you and I
Can find the answer
And then, we can run to the end of the world
We can run to the end of the world

Cold fire clenched to my heart
In the blue of night
Torn by this pain, I paint your name in sound
And the girl of the dawn with eyes of blue, and angel wings
The songs of the season are her only crown

Broken mirror, a million shades of light
The old echo fades away
But just you and I

yes, ive been a bum and have done absolutely nothing productive. unless you count completing a couple of missions on pharaoh productive. haha
i went to the library.. havent been in so long but nothing much has changed. its noisier i think. but apart from that.. still crap.. oh and the librarians are completely, utterly useless.
met up with joyce. even tho i had to burn a couple of discs for her and print out the covers, find a place to park, i STILL ended up waiting for her. wat else is new.. next time (i say this every time, i wont try so hard. =P
tomorrow tomorrow..

haha from the hills.
got up super early for a sunday to venture all the way by public transport to castle hill. took us a couple of hours as you would expect. but at least we didnt miss any trains and there werent any delays. especially on a public holiday.
donna n her mum picked us up from pennant hills station and we went to shop for some food for hot potting. then went to her place.. the house next to hers is sooo nice. hers is nice too but nicer =P
haha we made dumplings for the fun of making dumplings. and i had to make her cake out of an ice cream container cause she didnt have any big bowls. ahh, im so innovative. lol
went for a swim in her pool. and yes it was cold.. but i spent the longest in there. an hour or so. did some laps. theyre all chickens.. it took them 15 mins to get into the water.. and in a further 10 they were out again. how no fun. but yeh, not the best time for swimming eventhough the sun was out. showered.. and at one point i think i had a minor outbreak of hives.. dunno why. but make me feel really.. the shuddering feeling. but turns out nothing bad happened from it.
and we played mahjong =D =D fun fun fun. after learning how to play of course. and i kicked ass. so did val for that matter, she kepting winning but out of all the games, my 8 fahn was the highest. haha cherry was like *scoff* beaten by a noob, must be a fluke. hahahaha we switched between hotpotting and mahjonging until like 9 or so. then we had the cake, which shoudlve been in the fridge for longer, cleaned up (well i did anyway) and played more mahjong.. until like 2 in the morning cause they couldnt keep their eyes open. i woulda opted for an all nighter.. lol
theyre such lazyasses.. i was up around 8-9 or so.. but didnt get up get up until bout 10.. and the lazybones didnt get up until like 11:30.. how can u sleep that much *sigh*
we went yum cha in strathfield before we came home. mostly bludged. cleaned my room and played some pharaoh. and my lips and skin in general is unbelievably dry..

had to buy the stuff for dondons cake. and part of her present. and oh man... it almost as bad, if not worse, than christmas. went to kmart.. just to kill some time. biggest mistake ever. people were like fighting over the easter eggs.. freakin crazy. like okay, its on special.. doesnt mean u have to kill each other for them. theyre not free!! and the lines were absolutely crazy. they were so long.. i dont know how people couldve been bothered to line up and wait that long. so i walked out bout 10 seconds i walked in.
went to myer instead.. which was heaps better. nothing new so just went for a walk round the clothes and shoes department. had a look in angus and coote and prouds for a jewellery box. as much as i would have liked to buy it from angus and coote, they had more varieties at prouds and they were cheaper cause of the sale. so, prouds it was. which means i have yet to buy something from angus and coote.
then met valerie and we went to get the cake stuff.. coles didnt have one of the ingredients.. so we had to go to food for less. and they didnt have it either. grr.. so she went to mortdale to get it =) gave me a lift home.
family gathering today. cause of peeps from hk i suppose. and easter as well i guess. all about weirdness today. just fully weird. pk. haha they all crowded in my room.. and someone tried to change the language on my computer.. uhh.. uh uh. not doable. tsk tsk.

i woke up early to go swimming. and freakin hell, stupid false advertising. says theyre open on public holidays.. so i drive there and its freakin deserted. so i went to the roselands one.. and that was closed too. =( so i went home and washed my car instead.
went to the city for some pool (hahaha i suck), some korean food (it was really good) and cake. k and alcohol were both on the agenda. however, all the k places were fully booked and all the liquer shops were closed. so disappointing. haha so we bought a cake and then went to thai kee to buy forks and ate it at the food court. lol
then we went to galaxy.. fully packed. with all these little kids. i cant even remember the last time galaxy was so packed. same with the trains. im so use to catching morning trains and fast trains with like quiet people.. and then today, there were all these kids on the train screaming and shit. most of them were heading to the easter show. its not hard to figure out. haha
we were playing the nice people at galaxy.. giving away our tickets.. hahahaha and we were selective about it. donna was like 'hmm okay, look for a nice/cute looking little boy to give the tickets to'. so we walked around looking for the 'perfect candidate'. funny funny
headed to capitol for a sticker photo before we headed home. took so many shots on the one machine. but turned out pretty good. fun fun.
tomorrow is a must go shopping day. cause there are things that i need to buy.

had a long day today. just got home. starting from 8 am.. well actually, 7 cause i was up.. but not up up. anyhow, i drove to the library and parked my car there for the day. it got washed during the process. and walked to station.. caught the 9.03. and oh boy, i have not caught a slow train to the city in such a long caught it was packed.. and it kept getting pack-ier. haha and it was slow. slow slow!! and ironically, even though i didnt want a seat, i got one. met mandy at central and caught the bus to uni with her.
got to qma.. and thought it was going to be a sit there and listen and copy down the answers sort of tutorial. wrong wrong wrong.. well it was that until bought 10 mins before the end. then my tutor gets out the big yellow envelope and he says to the guy 'pass these around' and everyones like 'oh shit..' hahahaha. yes it was our quiz results.. and the passing around part was painful.. i mean.. the ppl before u got to see ur mark!!! and i think a lot of people got between the 2 and 3 range. i got a 4 when i couldve gotten a five out of five. im okay with it but well, i dropped that one mark. and not too proud of that.
then had a boring qma and acct lecture. lunch break. i had to hunt for fruit salad!! i mean.. every other time i see salad everywhere!! and i went to zippy and they didnt have it!! argh but dondon went to buy sushi.. and guess wat they had there?? yes!! my fruit salad.. and then the guys like *holds up fork* 'do u want this?' and im like.. err.. like yeah? do u want me to eat with my hands or something?! mandy dropped by to say hi towards the end.
legal tute.. wasnt so lively today. tutor was kinda pissed off again. i think shes getting fed up with us...? certain people. its not hard to understand why. and micro lec, again he let us off early. haha and his good and bad news.. so typical.
then donna had an experiment so went to mathews, had a talk and went to her experiment place.. and then cherry came along and we went city. where i was dragged around from vg to es to vg =P and missha. where they bought stuff for a guy. haha then we just went to the food court for some dinner. and freakin so much oil.. feel like throwing up.. juss cause i dont like oily stuff. which is food court stuff. had some crepes. discussed more about certain people. no one in particular. and came up with some songs to sing.
we left round 8.20.. and i almost missed my train (cause of donna =P =P) but it was like it was waiting for me.. the doors were closing.. and the guards looking sympathetically at me.. then they open again for some weird reason and i was like yay =D dont have to wait. and hes sort of half smiles at me.. and i smiled back cause im so nice. hahaha
had to walk back to the library kinda quiet.. and my car was like one of 5 or 6 left.. hehehe it was like shining there waitin for me. drove home.. and once i turned into the street i knew something was on. more specifically, someone was on at my place. there were all these cars clumped around my house (point 1), the lights outside were on (point 2), a car was blocking my driveway (point 3) which meant i couldnt park in the garage. pfft. so i parked opposite. turns out to be a bunch of family frends. which means young kids. which means noise. i basically went straight upstairs and shut my door.
so here i am.. and i squished this half ripe pimple.. freakin painful and big red mark on my forehead now. =( =( =( and its still bumpy.. yuck yuck yucccckkkkkk. bloody too. =( =( =( make up cant cover it!!! hydrating myself with 3 bottles of water to flush out food court crap... well okay, not crap, just oil.
oh and one final thing, eventho i dont think she'll see this. happy 18th dondon!! at least we didnt forget =P
tomorrow is a going out day. saturday is day to recover and sunday and monday is partyyy. then its studymode. coolness. happy easter ya'll.

went for a swim this morning. all the while thinking.. if this weather was like this on sunday. it would be really really reallllly nice. here's hoping.
seems like i wont be driving to castle hill after all. haha cause of valval..!! well, her mum or her fam frend to be precise. her mums scared that we'll end up like this fam frend of hers who was in a bmw and flipped 3 times (yet managed to escape unharmed..). oh well, guess we'll crash at dondons on sunday. which means i get to drink!! =D =D see, i can willingly want to catch public transport (bloody heaps of travelling too.. voluntarily).
micro presentation. it was 'very good' but i still got butchered. well, he (yeah, didnt get my normal tutor which was totally weird since she was here) butchered the question. said my curves were wrong which is totally whacked cause these were the 'right' curves according to val's tutor. so its like.. uhh... wtf? whos right and whos wrong then?.. yeah. jackass. i dunno made me so confused now. wat am i gonna hand in???
had to call val after.. and then she called me cause she was stressed too. high school students. improper and indecent behaviour. rude. etc.
train home was pretty packed.. really stuffy. talkin bout cars with harry.. and mandy and sam. haha
came home tried to do acct tute. didnt quite get tehre. val calls and goes come sit with me while i have dinner. so she comes around and we go to kagaya. and i tried doing my acct tute there too. not to be. had this pretty deep conversation bout us.. people in our group.. and other stuff.
came home and had this massive headache.. but i think i maanged to do my acct tute. like finally. dunno if its right. oh wells.. at least i got some stuff written down.
my cousins frend lost her puppy =( =( reminds me of shadow..

we finished the quick crossword today =)
after uni.. went for a walk in myer. there are these two really really nice pairs of shoes there. one, well, its just nice unless it was super cheap and the other.. nice casual but still expensive.
valerie just came online. i have to redraw some certain micro curves.. according to her tutor.. im a bit skeptical but wel.. here goes.

my skin is feeling extremely dry.. and i even moisturised heaps after showering.. and my hair is limp.. i think its all the chlorine getting to it. but skins feeling dry and irritated.. dunno why.. its not a particularly dry day.. hmm. one of those days.
i tried to do my accounting tute.. didnt do too well cause i wasnt paying much attention to it.. just.. something stopping me.. like i look at it and the question swirls around my head.. whatever. and micro.. well, i real the question.. and i flipped through and skimmed the chapter i was doing.
maanged to get through the day.. if not a little boringly.

i set my alarm for 9. hahaha a lot of good that did. i ended up waking at 11. but i am entitled to sleeping in the day i dont have uni.. =) headed to the pool. had to walk today.. refreshing in a word. jay walked across king georges not once, but twice.
spent good couple of hours at the pool. 100 laps and then some spa therapy. its good to go around this time cause u almost guaranteed a lane for urself.. no slow people in ur way. but i hope i dont make a habit of it.. cause it wastes the morning.
came home.. and i bludged for the afternoon. watched ep after ep of las vagas =D
got crackin in the evening.. did some of my legal.. (even tho i just had the mid session..) and watched more las vegas.. haha the show is so funny. =D

i didnt even realise it was this late until i looked at the clock.
qma quiz. couldve done better.. had i had another couple of mins. but well, you make do.
boring qma lecture followed by a boring acct lecture. lunch at quad fd court. haha we made donna walk around in a circle so we could discuss her birthday present. =D she cut a huge semi-circle (as opposed to corner..)!
legal tute.. there is always something to laugh bout in this tute. by far, as i say again, it is the most 'interactive' and funny and unboring tute.. today, the guys were talking bout coming in through the window.. (cause apparently, they had a lecture in a theatre behind the room. oh and the shutter is like the one at my place.. electronic.. and this guy put a chair inbetween the window and the shutter to 'see what will happen'.. before our tutor came in, we were talkin bout how her accents hard to understand.. which inevitably generates comments and etc. marking the role is always eventful.. ahh yes.. and we were talkin bout courts and stuff. and well, lets just say some people are really twisted. however, i had this feeling that our tutor was pissed off if not irritated today.. even sad? well.. she is marking our mid-session exams..... hmm. i think she was unimpresssed with some of the answers (in general, cause she doesnt mark our papers; theyre random).
and it woudlve been a very mundane micro lecture had one girl not decided to scream (ear piercing scream ie) suddenly. it made more than a couple of people jump. literally. donna got scared. lol. apparently some insect or something bit her.. and our lecturer was like.. if ur gonna die, go outside.. or even better, go onto anzac parade cause u have no idea how much paper work there will be if u die in here. LOL. then he was like.. its good that ur sitting at the back. dont come any closer. hahaha funny funny.
home.. caught the port kembla. actually, i had to make a run for it. and it is possible to get from eddy st entrance to platform 25 in under one min!! had to dodge all these people and tell ppl to move out of my way on the escalator but i made it. packed train. and well, it was either catching this one tat is almost non-stop to hursty or waiting 7 mins for an all stations. i'll take the port kembla thanks. didnt go straight home. i actually had this urge to buy fruit.. but i didnt cause it was all crap. so i went for a walk in myer and other shops. some interesting stuff. all too pricey for me.. no matter how cheap. and i didnt have the urge to buy either. i am not an impulse spender. but there was this really nice pair of shoes that ive seen for a long time. discounted only 20 bucks.. like nah-uh.. still too expensive.
it was chilly again when i walked home.. in fact, it was pretty cool today again in general. 'icy winds'.
i been watching sailor moon and las vegas.. haha and i was such a couch potato this evening.. 6 oclock news right thru to end of las vegas. maybe its cause i havent watched tv in aggesss.. literally. who knows.

(Delta Goodrem - Together We Are One [Live])
lecture and tute and went straight home.. to study for qma. fun-ness.
anyway, i got an email from mary.. and it has gotten me ridiculously irritated and frustrated. not at the email, i mean, she told me shes out of hospital which is good news but well, it was the fact that she sent it to two people.
in the 'to' box obvoiusly. which is how i know. and well, if u know me well enough, u will know that i strongly dislike people using 'to' unless they know that everyone else has my email, etc. so for eg, if someone on my msn list decided to send some shitty forward to everyone on their msn list thorugh 'to' and not 'bcc', it pisses me off.. cause it means people who dunno me get my email addy, or people who i dont want to give my email to have my email. so obviously, its normal if say donna, val and mandy and cherry, etc sent emails in 'to' cause it makes no difference.
yes im ranting and mildly stressed (about it and qma.. i hope). no prizes for guessing who the second person is. if i can rant about it.. its not hard to work out. its a stupid email addy if that helps. lol

went for a swim this morning.. 80 laps =) felt so good after.. and not tired.. which is quite weird. had to go in via the stadium cause they were going something to the glass doors at the pool entrance. nice place the stadium.. quite impressed i am. and i am envious that the gym has (i think) better shower facilities than the pool. guess thats what happens when its newer.
pretty ordinary uni day.
i was microwaving one of those reheatable (well, i thought and am quite sure it is reheatable) boxes. anyway, so i either microwaved in for too long (3 min on high) or its not meant to be mircrowaved. cause the lid sort of burst.. like after i took it out, there was a hold in the lid.. =X which means i have to chuck out the box.. but yeah, it was weird.. cause it WAS microwaveable.. i mean, its plausible that i microwaved it too long.. cause it was a tiny box..

april. hard to believe that one quarter of the year has gona by already. and ive neglected my blog for a few days by burying myself in learning all the sections of the constitution.. (not).
today was my legal mid session.. it was okay. but we werent given enough lines to write on.. fully overkilled the paper with the writing. and when i mean we werent given enough lines, i mean, even if i still had tiny writing, it wouldnt have been enough so yeah.
then anna and i sat at the colonnade. ive noticed that when i go sit with another person, when its usually one on one, there is a tendency to discuss (or to put it more harshy "bitch" or "gossip") about other people. interesting indeed.
she had a lab at 12 so i headed homewards.
ohh, and another thing bout today that was different, there were transit officers on both the buses i caught today.. which was a bit extreme.. basically from central, they got on halfway to uni and checked everyones tickets.. and yes, there were people who got fined both ways. tsk tsk why risk it.
went to westfield to buy some drugs from the chemist warehouse.. ohh and i was walking home.. and i picked up 20 bucks. it was on the side of the road =D that is by far, the greatest amound ive found. so its been an okay day.
now need to do accounting tute and qma stuff.. this week will go by pretty quickly i think.